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"Is it worth a try? Or will I drown, what better way to die-- in search of life."

"You float in a million lights, but the one you seek is not there. You fight in a million fights, but it's yourself you cannot bear..."-Mind.in.a.Box

I am vivid, silent endless, undone.
Creation timeless as fallen rain.
My love, pale dusk, which coats your earthbound heart.
As much as droplets hovering unnoticed along the drain.
My eyes burn dark, as much as yours
Sometimes I almost believe we're the same.
And gone are such trenches deep, diving lines.
Implacable liquid substances as that which we restrain.
Absolution, a promise I most stubbornly rebute.
Else cultivate in gutters, letting dreams grow as mold.
Taking pleasure in knowing if such can kill me, I must still be alive.
Otherwise dead to a sporeless world grown cold.
I am earthen alike, and yet as heavenly a teardrop,
Plummeting fast through darkest lands.
Longing to find salvation in silken, moonlit streams,
And not slip weightlessly, like water through your hands. ---Me

Okay, now onto the less poetic, more down to earth jargin.

This is not the first time I have submitted an online profile of myself, but it never seems to get any easier, and so I will try my best to be as honest as I can.

I am tall. 5'11" to be exact. I find this detail to be important because most men aren't used to this. I am also plus sized, which is of equal importance because when you put these two physical characteristics together you get a very shy and self-conscious individual who is more than a little afraid of this online setting, due to the fear of being rejected upon first "real" meeting.
However, Mind.In.A.Box once wrote that "It is the fear that takes you down..." and so I have learned to love myself, and believe that perhaps I shouldn't be so afraid anymore.

As you can tell, I like to write. I consider it therapy of sorts; a means by which I can take the darkness and make it something beautiful. While my life is peppered with gothic undertones and habits, I would not consider myself as solely that, nor anything which can so simply be described in mere sentences or even paragraphs. I am shy, but outgoing and boisterous once you get to know me. I love music, concert events, and a man who isn't afraid of the effects of a little eyeliner and lipstick. I do not so much want a "boyfriend, " as much as I want a companion who understands me and might also feel the same. Come what may, perhaps it's worth a try?

Capricorn

Big And Beautiful

5' 11 (1.8 m)

Brown

Caucasian

Single

No

Yes

Smile

Pierced... But Only Ear(s)

Dark Brown

Cat

No

College Degree

Part-time

Art / Music / Literature

Telecommunications

$15,000USD To $29,999USD

With Roomate(s)

All Is Calm

No

Yes - One Or Two

Outcast

Shy, Friendly, Dark, Strange

Arts & Crafts, Reading, Music, Clubbing / Bar Hopping, Dancing, Dining, Theater, Travel, Gardening, Playing Cards

Staying At Home, Trying New Things, Relaxing, Reading A Book, Playing Dress-up, Playing Video Games, Going To A Concert, Going To A Museum

Excellent conversation and the overall feeling of ease, for this is what makes the evening memorable, no matter the setting. But to be fair, I enjoy going for walks among natural settings, chatting over coffee, and going to concerts( especially if they are of the electronic persuasion. )

I will not know the answer to this question until it presents itself.

Friendly, Obscure

Spiritual But Not Religious

Never

Democrat

I would like to somehow make a lasting impression on those around me. Life is short, and I not only long to be loved, but also to be understood, so that I may be remembered always.

My goal in life is to not only write and publish a book, but write and publish a GREAT book ( or two. )

Raunchy

News, Movies, Sports

Science Fiction, Comedy, Animation

Electronic, Industrial, Dance

Fantasy, Satire, Science Fiction

I'll tell you when I am experiencing it, as I am still figuring it all out...

Intelligence, Humor, Sensitivity, Boldness, Oddities, Thoughtfullness

I search for someone who shimmers like threads of sunlight against the tepid ripples of a muddied pond. A dynamic individual who posses a quiet intelligence beyond his years and isn't afraid to let it show when in the company of someone he trusts. He must believe in the power of love, and remain faithful to it, beyond all else. For love in itself is a dying art which, like the finest of porcelains, must be preserved.

Friend, Date, Intimate, Committed